Spanking 'Interruptus'

In recent weeks my husband has more often than not threatened a spanking….like he always has when I am surly. Maybe employing a swat or two. However not like normal.

I thought we were kind of taking a step back from our summer romance. Life just was overflowing into our lovely memories and I was not taking his distance happily, or his exhaustion good naturedly.

When things like this occurs I either withdraw, or talk, talk, and talk….trying to get into deep conversations. Rather unfair to a man who can barely stay awake after he walks in that door. I am usually very considerate.

The other night I was not thinking clearly, I was in the zone. He was sitting in ‘his’ favorite chair when I walked by him after railing about something, and commenting, “that’s how well you care about what I am saying.” He took my arm and tossed me over his knee and smacked me several times firmly but really not hard. I laughed, he did as well, and said some things…my disposition was better in the short term. WHY?

I can honestly say that my mood has been a miasma recently. I know others have spoken about hormonal changes affecting their ability to react normally. (Some of this is my later age) Unfortunately circumstances are interfering with my ability to turn things around. Usually I am able to get myself out of the darkness quickly. I am an outgoing person and most times I just need to connect with others, smile, laugh and I am there…. Happy. I do seem to come out of it for a period of time. At work- I love the kids and they just right my world with their love and innocence.

My children are older so really quite happy to spend their days after school, working and/or socializing with friends. Seems great right? (I miss them too) More time for hubby and me to enjoy each other. Well it would be if he were home. Unfortunately/ fortunately he is working incredibly long exhausting hours. He is gone about 15 hours a day, sometimes longer.

I have been here many, many times before. However, ‘in the old days’ I had so much to keep up with, I missed him but, reality was reality and I was practical about it all. Plus, I filled my need for extra help etc. with my large family’s offers. We all reciprocated in those early years. Not only did we help as needed, it was a social outlet. Our houses were filled with children of all ages. At the end of a day often more than one family shared a meal.

The beginning of my entrance into ttwd brought a new and refreshing outlook in our changing lives. I miss the time and ‘research’ we shared.

I am sure we will get back to it as his work quiets….if it does. But until then I cannot really share much with him. Even some medical concerns I am dealing with right now. I have stopped biking for the short term since I am experiencing some heart racing and tiredness. There are other symptoms as well but hopefully the doctor will shed some light.

Maybe it can all be attributed to ‘that time of my life beginning.’ It may also be a result of a vitamin deficiency.

 I am not worrying about something unless I have something to worry about!

I know my husband is too tired but, maybe a really hard spanking would help. I am not really sure if I would even go for that. I am crazy…see?

Well thanks for reading!

Minelle