I am in a
stressed out place.
My Scotsman
has been gone almost constantly since the start of this year. He is working LONG nights so we
are on completely opposite schedules.
Phone conversations are basically, “I
just woke up and now I need to rush to work, or I am going to be late. Is
everything okay with you, the kids, your family and mum?”
If he gets a chance
to travel from the house he returns in the morning after I leave and starts off
to work before I get home.
If and when
he has a couple of days off work, the man is in a fog because he can’t seem to
realign easily to our normal day schedule. 
I actually picture a deep sea diver from the 40s.
There is also the added stress of
locating the next job. Not always a problem since the Scotsman is respected and
well liked in his profession. But……
You get the
picture….
Then add my serious job stress, family management difficulties, (lots
of major issues here) any minor tragedy occurring like….. a rogue mouse, ants
taking over, dogs gone wild, A minor flood, hosting a large family gathering without help….minor
health issues with me and other family members…Making the needed time for my parents, and my Scotsman's mom. (who lives with us)
(I am only
sharing the easy stuff…you'd think I was crazy...lol)
SO...guess what?
I start doing stupid things because I am over
extended and NEVER know how to say NO.
So I end up......
*Losing my
phone in the car…..for 20 minutes.
*Texting
directly in front of two administrators. WHAT WAS I THINKING?
*Getting hurt
twice at two different trainings….sigh…
Yada…yada…yada…
Of course,
even if it isn’t logical…who do I get aggravated with???
My poor
Scotsman.
Now mind you
he is NOT perfect! Now shush some of you…he isn’t...
However…when
you feel safe…to push….
Grrrrrrrrrrr..........
I guess I
have gritted my teeth, talked in a very cheeky manner, and basically had steam
seeping from my ears, the top of my head and through my teeth. 
Maybe even said
I was going to do whatever I felt like. I know...I know....sounds awful..
I have even
texted someone suggesting I was going to ‘stoat’ my husband.
So……yes I
have had a few moments…..of
ATTENTION.
I was told
if I gritted my teeth at him one more time I was going to be spanked ….
I have been
over the bed twice….
Rolled over
in bed twice…OUCH….Once I even flung my hand back……that hand was grabbed by my
guy and placed away from his descending hand.
These are quick statements...of his displeasure.
He is not harsh- ever- just makes his point ‘quickly
apparent.’ And we are always okay.
Even if I am still angry!
Once over
the weekend I was told how lucky it was he turned around to check behind us,
before he spanked…..yep….
We have had
some light hearted moments.
A lovely breakfast brunch....and
My Scotsman
later said, “He does the warning and I do the obeying”…That did make us both
laugh since he is not a controlling guy.
I just want some
normal……Or a sexy vacation...
Hey Minelle...you forgot the tree! BTW...is there any damage?
ReplyDeleteGo P!!!! Give both of you some stress relief! I am totally shocked...shocked I tell ya that Minelle would threaten to "stoat" you...she definitely deserves a spanking for that alone! :D
Seriously Minelle...sending lots of prayers and positive energy your way.
Hugs and Blessings...
Cat
Omg the tree! Sheesh how could I forget that one!! It filled the patio after falling off the roof! My Scotsman just finished sawing that up and putting all the new logs in containers!
DeleteSnort! That you are shocked I'd want to stoat my guy!
Stress relief is still welcome!
I'm glad you got to see each other for that much reconnection. I hope you are at least looking for a new job. I sure don't like what I hear about your current one.
ReplyDeleteAfter today I may not need to look!
DeleteWe are relaxing into each other again. It's nice.
WOW my friend....life is on over load for you. Keep breathing....and think summer vacation...and this craziness can't last forever...and stoat?? what is stoat, i might want to use it some day.
ReplyDeletehugs abby
Wish I had a decent summer vacation!
DeleteBREATHE........yes, I am trying.
Don't ever say it to Master....lol...It means to hit!
Wow Minelle, I really hope life settles down a little and that you both get some breathing space soon.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you had some time to connect and some light hearted moments together over the weekend.
Hugs
Roz
We are getting more time together,and getting to a nice place where we are on a similar schedule.
DeleteLife however....keeps smacking me in the head!
Gosh Minelle, what a busy life, we are a bit like that with hubby working nights and me working days at the moment. I am hating it, I hope you get some together time soon
ReplyDeletelove Jan,xx
I feel your pain Jan!
DeleteIt is awful when we are on different schedules isn't it. No one is ever a their best!
...gosh I am tired. I do not know how you do it...oh I know one day at a time...still you amaze me at your ability to keep breathing throughout the challenges. I wish you both "normal" whatever that is - mostly I wish you calm, uneventful, joyous times...with a little sexy vacation in the making. :-) Hugs
ReplyDeleteWe have planned that sexy vacation! So YAAAAAAAY!!!
DeleteI look forward to calm!!!
Sometimes my breathing is labored! LOL
Hey, are we living the same life...and what is with the random acts of losing one's mind? If you figure it out, let me know.
ReplyDeleteI hope this will come to an end for you and until then, something tells me that you will be hearing something similar to what my husband says..."Do you need my full attention?"
I was thinking that when I read your post!
DeleteYes I am getting 'More' of his attention....but gently...sort of! LOL
Well the end of the school year is coming....hopefully that will mean something ( provided you don't choose to fill that time up with other things, silly woman!).
ReplyDeleteSo you can still be angry after you get up huh? LOL! I'd like to say I don't understand, but that'd be a lie. Good luck navigating through these choppy waters.
It would take a LOT for me to stop being angry right now Wilma! My life is very complicated and challenging...
DeleteMy boat has capsized...more than once.
Just reading this post made me tired and think how you guys managed to stay connected during long periods of separation and only brief get togethers. That is crazy, and I honestly don't think my husband could handle that. He really needs to have that physical connection.
ReplyDeleteIs there an end in sight to this craziness?
Staying connected is just harder...but its always that 'faith' in each other that eventually shines through.
DeleteThank goodness we have had some of what is needed!
He has paddles, wooden spoons, and cinnamon oil. What is he waiting for??
ReplyDeleteHey...gentle is what I need...Maybe! Nah.....
DeleteHe isn't waiting!
He has paddles, wooden spoons, and cinnamon oil. What is he waiting for??
ReplyDeleteOh gosh Minelle, sounds like complete overload to me!!! Sounds like your Scotsman is helping you out there is ways spanky and loving. That's the ticket! As another crazed human with way too much going on constantly, just take it one day at a time and try to find that sun in each and every day. I think that it helps! Aaaah! We have to do the best that we can. - you know I am here for you when you need it. Feel good and take care! Many hugs,
ReplyDelete<3 Katie
Thanks Katie. I try and take it one day at a time, smiling as much as possible. However, when it is too much I just try and let myself relax.
ReplyDeleteMy Scotsman's attention can make some things better , for sure!