This describes my life and my mood lately.
If you want something clear and concise do not read me today! If you want to have a bit of a laugh and a tear at my expense than stay. Believe me I will make your life seem sane!
Those of you who have regular updates on my
insanity can attest to the FACT that I am running on empty. This has been a summer of one challenge on
top of another. Many of them are never going to be resolved. I am not Superwoman even if I try and act as if she and I are interchangeable .
Some of you
know that I lost my job. I know it has nothing to do with my performance. The
agency I work for was not retained by the schools where I taught. It is all
about money and new leadership.
I am so sad because I am
truly passionate about teaching kids the love of art. I may hate the politics
of education but never the kids. Plus I know these kids!
I really want them to understand I didn’t choose to
leave them. I cannot tell you how many of my students begged me to never go
away.
I am
struggling with missing them… as school begins.
In the midst of many changes and challenges let me give you a glimpse into my life.
We rarely have a relaxing Sunday and on this particular one we began furiously getting ready for a Christening. Clothes were strewn about and my Scotsman couldn't locate his dress shoes. The guy works like a madman barely having an hour to relax. I never thought that the shoes wouldn't be in his closet.
I found them....Heroine Minelle... smiles and accolades!
I was interrupted prior to the event
with a phone call from the new art teacher asking me to meet at my old place of
employment. I needed to clear out all my bookcases, books, dishes, files,
examples, etc…while handing over the keys.
Let me say,I believe in acting with integrity.
I understand
her desire for getting started….but…! I guess I was discombobulated; this was a
slightly unusual way to pass the hat… I mean not exactly professionally
arranged...But... I knew she was excited to begin her job. I remember that feeling!
In the midst of these thoughts, we had
another phone call from overseas relating sad news. We took time to make sure everyone was okay. This understandably delayed us.
Dressing nicely my husband, daughter and I ran to the church with
a millisecond to spare.
And hubby only misplaced his dress shoes twice.
It was
a different type of service and inspired quite a bit of discussion….enough
said.
Next.....
The plan was
to pick up a card, change into more comfy clothes and move the four cars around
for everyone’s imminent use.
Since I needed to go transfer my life of work from
my EX-Classroom to my home studio,(Half of the family room now) we needed two cars at the Christening party.
It was a mad
rush to change, move cars and write out the card prior to the party.
Now...white shirt over black top and black jeans....
Mind you I
was ready sitting in the car waiting for my darling Scotsman….
Somehow the
keys for our car disappeared in the moments after our daughter rearranged the
car parking.
Of course I
assumed she had them! So I called her and suggested she somehow misplaced them.
She frantically shared that she misplaced the card….My normally very competent daughter
was completely frustrated.
Daughter
arrives and we all searched…even my mother in law.
We looked
for the keys for a long time…the card---- was located quickly.
But.... NO KEYS.
Picture a
bellowing Scotsman….aggravated.
Picture me
superior sounding while pointing out that I had nothing to do with the ‘car rearranging,
so it was everyone else's problem!
I was asked
by hubby and daughter if I checked my purse.
Rolling my eyes a TINY bit.....
Check….! (Lofty
look from me) No keys….
I walked
into the house assuming once again I would need to fix this problem somehow….Sheesh!
Superwoman mode!
Oh! I
thought, let’s just take the van…
Seriously…?! What is wrong with me?
Took me long enough!
I shared my
wonderful solution and climbed into the van passenger side. Hubby climbed into the
driver seat.
Looking down
in to my purse.....
I spotted…….yikes….YES…YES! The keys!
Need I
describe the LOOK?
Who set me
up? They were not there before!!
We hurried
to the party over an hour late and expressed our apologies. We are never late!
I was
offered a glass of red wine….
I shared a
bit of food with my wine….Trying to relax.
I began
sharing my sadness at losing my job and cleaning out my stuff....
......... over my second
red wine….
Gesticulating
wildly I somehow spilled an entire glass upon my person!
Yes my white shirt now
looked reddish purple.
Sigh…we left
so I could change prior to the move…I cannot imagine I would look capable
smelling of and covered in wine.
I wanted to do this with integrity...
Walking out
I was smacked firmly on the bum. He smiled widely, “what the heck happened?”
I said, “I
don’t know... I lost control of my hands!”
He raised
his right hand and said, “I am about to lose control of this hand all over your
behind!”
Nope he didn’t---
he knew I needed hugs and gentle care that day!
I cannot
tell you what a sweetie he is…He came with me and in the classiest, friendliest
way I wanted, he heaved and lifted a van full of memories.
I know that was all for me because he is angry on my behalf.
My voice
shaking I shared my thanks with him….
He is the
greatest.
I am not
perfect and I am here to say that during this time of angst a few stress relief
spankings have been needed….
These days I do not always want it but I really need it! (Unless it is FUN spanking)
I will share
that he has seen just how much it changes my mood…
There are plenty more stories.....
Another....of interrupted love as well.
Maybe next time!
Thanks for reading,
Minelle
PS.....Yes Cat I screwed up the type again. I was impatient and figured...what the heck!
